Plateau

I feel like I always end up stagnant. I get to a certain place in my success and then I just stop, not just in weight loss but in life.

I can get to a certain point and then it is like my brain shuts off, or my heart stops caring and I give up and retreat into myself and thats just the end.

I don't know if I am scared, or exhausted, or just following the wrong path, but I always end up in the same place.

My weight loss has plateaued for the last week, and I am not happy about it. It is super easy to stick with a diet when you see results on the scale, when your pants go down a size. But when its the same number for a full week, even after cheating a bit, and then going full force back into the diet, and cutting out your favorite diet coke for two days... it makes it hard to feel the fever to keep going.

I guess every diet gets to the point that is just not as fun, but I hate that I hit mine so soon. I am going to keep going, but i am nervous as I am going out of town with people who are not eating paleo, and when I am away from my house, and my schedule, it is hard to stick to healthy. I am going to try though. I don't want to gain weight. I will be at the beach with a bunch of skinny married girls, so I know already the voices in my head will be talking down to me.  Hanging out with my old sorority sisters should be stressful or painful. But part of me has a hard time adjusting to change. I like to be in control of things, and this is a situation that I will not have full control over. I am just going to try to enjoy myself, and enjoy the time with my friends. Alcohol is probably going to be present, but I will try not to drink my weight in beer.

I am actually excited to go to the beach with my family and stephanie the week after because stephanie will be there, and will be continuing her whole 30 (40) so she will be a good gague if I am getting off course, and as always it is easier to eat healthy when everyone around you is. I will definitely try to be there for her, and support her. She is doing such a good job. Maybe I should just get off the scale for a while.

It just makes me angry that I did everything perfect yesterday and I didn't even shed .1 of a pound. I have to bust through the plateau.