The chocolate cake incident

So I made a relatively healthy choice for my "free dinner" last night.

I did have a burger, but I got a side of mashed sweet potato instead of fries. I don't really crave fries that much. I don't even really like them, I am usually just too lazy to look at the other side options and pick something different. Normally I would get a side salad, but they didn't have it. So I got the mashed sweet potato... which ended up being delicious and a great choice.

The Burger was perfect, I didn't have to get the whole wheat bun, I just had it on a regular bun, and I got to drink diet coke... which is my favorite and not allowed on the diet. It was a great meal... and then the desert menu happened.

I usually don't get desert in restaurants. I am too cheap, and I try to keep some mini candy bars or Hershey kisses at home, so if I need chocolate I have some on hand. Unfortunately with the diet, I don't have any chocolate because it is not allowed.

I was not going to get desert but then another girl on the diet got one, and I just suddenly was CRAVING chocolate.. I mean crazy craving it. I realized I had not had chocolate since the diet started and suddenly it was the only thing I wanted despite being somewhat full ( not uncomfortable full, but knowing that I didn't need a full piece of cake.) But I got it anyway. I realize now when I see other people doing it, I feel like it is okay for me to do... and that is not always the case. Some other people are not on diets, and I really pushed the limits of my stomach capacity with that cake. I could not physically finish it, and I literally had to throw my napkin over it. I mean it was delicious and perfect and I probably should have stopped after a few bites, but my cheap side took over and if I pay 5 dollars for a frigging piece of cake, I feel obligated to eat the entire thing. Which didn't happen because I felt ILL.. ILL I SAY! I thought I was going to throw up.

My stomach must have shrunk some... but going home that night, even though it was my free meal, and I don't lose any points for the diet game I really regretted my decision to do that. I just kept thinking about how to burn the calories, but it was hard to even want to move when I got home.

It was like the Gods KNEW I would overindulge, and when I got home the workout videos I ordered last week had arrived on my doorstep. How convenient.

As I was reading through the materials with the videos it had a section for "tips when eating out". I had to laugh because it said " Don't even look at the desert menu"... Ahhh if only that had been delivered before I left to go to Trivia!

Oh well, It happened, I need to bounce back and regain the confidence and happiness I had at the beginning of the week. One bad meal is not going to completely kill all the progress I have made, just like one healthy meal is not going to make me svelte and thin. I have to keep things in perspective.