reflection

Tomorrow is my 29th birthday. It is hard to wrap my brain around the fact that next year this time I will be 30. I don't feel it, and don't really look it, but there are times when I feel my old age creeping up on me.
Had my birthday party on saturday, and I had an amazing time, I was really sad the next day though. This time of year is hard for me. Last year this time was the lowest I have ever been. I feel like I have come a long way, but there are still things in my life I have a hard time getting right. My weight is one of them. I remember trying so hard to lose weight this time last year, and it was just not happening. I feel like that was mostly because I was depressed, eating my feelings and not sleeping well. But this year, I realized I looked around the room at my party, and the majority of the people there were people I had met in the last year. These amazing people, who had come into my life on a whim, were filling my home with love and well wishes, and the part that was even better, was that the friendships from so long ago were there too.  Old friendships I thought I had lost were back, and though they are not the same ( because you never are) they are still there, and still strong.
I thought I lost everything, but really I have gained so much. I feel like I am really living. I am not scared to make new friends. I embrace them.

I prayed and prayed last year that I would be in a much different place on my birthday the next year, and I am... and you know what, Odd years tend to be the best anyway. So Cheers to age 29, I have earned it.