Making Excuses.

So since the trauma of the .5 weight loss yesterday, I have set myself even more firm in my resolution to try even harder this week and really lose weight this week.

I have been even more meticulous with my calories, and I am bumping up my cardio. I can make every excuse in the book, but I know I may guess on calories or not push myself in my workouts or think... "It's that time of the month so my hormones are crazy and I am retaining water". But at the end of the day ... or perhaps the week, the scale does not lie. It shows my free meals, it shows my workouts where I didn't run and just walked in my comfort zone. It tells the truth.

I have to be firm in my resolve. I have so many factors in my life that are stressing me out. I am dealing with family issues right now, Work is killing me and my friends are demanding time I don't have. I need to carve a space for myself. I need a zen night. I wish I didn't feel obligated to so many things, and people and not myself.

I also feel like I am getting sick... and when I am sick I want nothing more than to curl up and sleep. Maybe this is my body's way of giving out since I have done nothing but push myself since January.

I do too much, this is obvious... but I don't know how to not. Life happens whether I am ready for it or not. I need to be better about time management.

I will go to the gym tonight, and I will push myself. Get that heart rate going, and I will stick to a healthy dinner! Tuesday is for me.